I hate how obsessive compulsive I am.

When I get into something, I can't stop!

Sleeping and eating...

Ok, so this fatigue I've been experiencing since the start of this week is getting a little ridiculous! I wake up at 7am, work until 1pm, eat lunch, and then collapse into bed for a 3 hour heavy coma-like nap. I don't wake up until someone calls me for dinner. What is this nonsense?! One would think that I would feel refreshed and energized after such a generous nap, but I still feel exhausted the rest of the night. I even go to bed before midnight (about 4 hours earlier than usual!) so it's not because I sleep late. Maybe my body is finally starting to catch up on the all the lack of sleep during the school year?

But sleep is a good thing right? I've been getting about 10+ hours a day. Most people are satisfied with 7 hours, but I've learned that the perfect amount of sleep for me is 8-9 hours. It's not so little that I want to sleep more and not so much that I feel tired waking up.

I guess I feel regretful that time is slipping away without my having done much. >__< Last week, I only worked 3 hours a day so I was able to eat out and hang out with friends every single day. As a result, I've lost money and gained weight in return. I like the weight gain in certain places and not others...hahaha! ^^ It's horrifying how much money I've spent on food alone. I vowed that I would start making my own lunch everyday starting...today! ^^

Today's lunch:

There are somen noodles on the bottom, but you can't see them because the toppings overwhelm, haha.

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My favorite online boutique...

Two Weeks into Summer 2011

So the first day of work wasn't that big of a deal. I was given mundane tasks - such as sticking labels on magazines and keeping a record of our clients on Microsoft Excel. My manager says that with this done, we can start afresh tomorrow (yippee?) I say she is my manager, but in reality she is only a few years older than me. Doesn't the word manager just make you think oldddd though? I pictured a middle-aged woman. I didn't mind the work she gave me because I like to think that you have to start small if you want to learn and get somewhere (eventually). The fact that she herself had to do this before I came along also comforted me, hehe. ^^ I hope to do exciting things soon!

After work, I waited for all of my friends at the bus stop because we all arranged to have a lunch date! <3 I had originally planned to meet one friend, but the number kept increasing (to almost about 12 people!) I was worried that there wouldn't be enough seating in the tiny crepe house as originally planned, especially after my sister warned me that it gets busy during lunch hour!

At the bus stop, a guy started to strike up a conversation with me!
I was waiting for the conversation to die down, as they normally do among strangers, but he kept asking question after question. I realized he was trying really hard to keep up the conversation and I wasn't helping. ^^; I was sneaky and pretended to play with my phone to avoid awkward conversation, but he was oblivious and continued talking to me, lol! He asked me if I was going to school here, what I was studying, etc. When I told him that I was an art major and that I loved doing portraits, he asked if I could do a portrait of him. Honestly, I don't think I would mind because he's very good looking with beautiful hazel eyes.

I responded, "Maybe I'll draw you if I see you next time."
He replied coolly, "Oh, I'm pretty sure we'll see each other often. I leave in August too."

(Wait - how did he know? I never told him...but I guess it's easy assumption to make. But why does he seem so certain we'll meet again?)

He told me that he was from Florida and that he was here as an intern for Hawaiian Airlines! He also said that he noticed me earlier and wanted to give me his umbrella because I looked so scared of the rain. LOL! He offered me his umbrella, saying that he didn't use it anyway! I cut our conversation short when I told him that my friends were already on the bus waiting for me.

I am usually very wary when talking to strangers because I live in the dangerous part of town. I hope he is the friendly guy that I think he is because he knows where I go to school and how old I am. I don't know anything about him because I didn't ask. However, it was very refreshing to talk to someone new! I wonder if I'll see him again?

I ended up seeing five of my friends for lunch - my sister also came to join us!


It was a pretty big group, so I didn't really get to do the catching up that I had planned. I learned that it's more difficult for me to talk to big groups and that I enjoy talking to people one-on one. This may be why I feel more comfortable at intimate parties rather than big parties...

I ordered the veggie crepe ($6)! It had a chock full of spinach, which I love, but I would have preferred it to be cooked spinach as opposed to raw. I dislike raw vegetables - they make me feel like a rabbit. I want to come back and order a sweet crepe! ^^

I rested at home for a bit before doing a little job hunting.
Why is it so difficult to find a job? >_<
If I can't find one, I should be using the time to work on improving various skills I have...studying, for instance.
Ahaha...I need discipline!!!

On a random note (wow, this is getting long!) I have started reading books again!
Yayyyy! I visited the library this past Saturday and it was actually open for once (the past three times I visited was a big fail). Although I read at school, I feel like I haven't read since forever because they weren't reading for enjoyment. I also missed manga. <3 I am currently reading the novel The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger .



I love a good love story and I wanted to read the book before I watched the movie. ^^

Why so tired?

I don't know why, but I've been waking up so late these past few days. This past Saturday and Sunday, I woke up at a little before noon. I was shocked, because I thought it was around 9am and I never wake up this late! I also go to bed by midnight, which is way earlier than I did during the school year. It's difficult to get out of bed because my body feels so heavy. I also spend the day feeling extremely tired and listless. Have I used up all my energy sleeping??? Does this even make sense?

It's been about two weeks since I got back and I'm spending it happily and lazily~♪ I got to hang out with my family (surprisingly!), see my old high school friends, and meet up with Willamette ones too. ^^

I start my official first day of my internship tomorrow so I will have to force myself out of bed this time. I'm really excited! I really like everyone that I met at the orientation and I want them to like me too. They are what I want to become someday after graduation haha. ^^ I have no idea what is in store for me and I still lack the confidence in my abilities, but I'm going to try my best!

One thing's for sure: I need to take more photographs!!!

Packing Hell

I don't think most people realize how mentally and physically straining packing is. I thought I didn't have much, but things kept multiplying as I packed. I spent three days straight mostly packing. I was so stressed out that I even cried a little today between packing and taiko performances. I don't know if it was my nerves that caused this (or the other way around), but I started to have a massive stomachache that gave me chill shocks throughout my body. I felt so cold. It was different from the flu and I know I'm not sick. This made the packing process more difficult, but it was better than resting in bed because I was more conscious of the sharp pains nabbing me. Forcing myself to move around was a good distraction. ^^;

After 1 large box, 2 medium boxes, 3 small boxes, a suitcase, and two makeshift garbage bags storing miscellaneous items, I'm done! I'm writing this because I made it...!

Finally!

I've always done packing on my own since freshman year. Everyone always has friends to help them, but I somehow end up doing everything myself. ^^; I don't mind~ it's a good way to build strength. Right now, I'm just waiting for a vacuum cleaner. And my friends to come get me and carry my things to their room. I'm going to secretly stay in her room for the next 5 days before boarding a train for Vancouver...! It's not even 9PM yet, but I'm so tired that I want to go to bed already.

Finished

Okay, so I actually got through all four finals today.
CRAZY ISN'T IT (!!!)
I literally jumped for joy when I got back to my room around 7:30PM!
But now that it's all over, a bunch of realizations and mixed feelings just came crashing down on me...

I just finished my second year in college.
My friends (seniors) ARE LEAVING ME FOREVER.
I'm going to Vancouver to see JYJ next week.
I'M DONE.

I don't know how I feel right now. Slightly confused?