Cold!!!

This morning, I burnt my hand with hot tea. But it was the first time I was okay with it because I thought that at least if my hand was on fire, they wouldn't be freezing in the cold.

He taught me something...

You will meet all kinds of people going to a liberal arts college.
Coming here has definitely opened up my small mind.
I feel repetitive, but I can never stress this enough.

I'm a hypocrite in the way that I hate people who judge and make assumptions about others.
I didn't like the idea of people forming ideas about me that may not be true.
But I realize that it is an inevitable part of human nature to judge others.
Perhaps they are instinct from cavemen times?

Everyone likes to think that they are open minded, but appearances does count for something. It's what the eye sees first.

Having said all this, I just wanted to express how touched I felt tonight by someone who I've always felt a little uneasy around. I didn't know why he made me feel uncomfortable, but there is something a little...off about him. You will know it when you meet him. My friends make faces when I ask if they know him. He's different.

But he is really nice to me. We have the same birthday and the same double majors. After that, we could not be more different. I know he smokes. I know he parties. I know he does drugs. (But wait- doesn't almost everyone in college?) He's constantly laughing at me. (It makes me feel terrible to say this...since when did it become suspicious when people laugh all the time? What a world we live in!)

We have art history class and he wanted to study together.
I didn't take this too seriously and I almost didn't go.
But I'm so glad I did.
I was fifteen minutes late and he was standing out there in the cold, waiting for me.
When I came closer, I told him, "It's freezing!
You could have gone inside the library...Oh, did you want to smoke?"
He replied, "No, I didn't smoke because I knew I was meeting you."

People laughed when they saw us sitting at a table, saying that they never expected to ever see him in a library. He usually studied in the Kaneko Atrium. Then I realized he went out of his way for a ten minute walk over the tough sky bridge (that everyone hates) just to study with me when he could have stayed in Kaneko. (...on top of that, I made him wait...)

I was taken aback because I didn't expect this. I don't think I was mean, but I've never treated him particularly well. But he was very accepting of me, even though he knows what I think of him. He apologized at the end of our study session, saying that he couldn't help me when I've helped him so much. But he didn't realize that I did learn something. He was the bigger person.

P.S. I posted three entries in one day, but all three are completely unrelated. They are all about different people and different thoughts at different times. :)

Love

Living in the kind of environment that I did, I've probably felt more anger, hate, and sadness in my life than happiness. People rarely treated me well.

So when someone is nice to me, I am surprised.
I also fall in love with them immediately.
This is the first time I've had so many people be nice to me.

I'm in love with everyone.

Yay, I'm officially done with classes and work for today!

Dinner in 15 minutes and then the library to study for my art history midterm! This is how I feel about art history...always:



I'm deathly afraid. I studied for 8 hours on the first quiz (barely received an A) and studied 5 hours for the second quiz (received a B). This midterm just might kill me because I have to write two essays...and writing counts!

But no, I can do this! I don't want to jinx it, but life has been pretty sweet so far. Of course, I've had drama and my crazy-no-time-for-anything-shitty weeks, but the past three day weekend was exactly what I needed!

This is the first time in my life that I've had a guy friend who is so candid toward me, divulging not exactly what you would call secrets but things you don't tell everyone. I've made several guy friends since coming to college, but none of them have talked to me in this way before. He is very comfortable with me and can say whatever. I realize how precious that feeling is and it makes me feel very happy.

On another note, he never ceases to shock me with the things he says. I don't know why it surprises me, but I just never expect it or see it coming. Being with him is interesting and he feels the same about me (haha, I don't think I can remain mysterious for long though!)

I am conscious of being careful. I've broken off relationships with people last year and cried several times because it upset me so much. Now I am afraid of getting too close to people and make new friends because I don't want the same thing to happen. I hope the good relationships I have with everyone right now lasts. ^^

P.S. All of the heaters in Lausanne are broken. How ironic is it that the tech shop is located in Lausanne? And what is up with my history with broken heaters on the coldest days? A friend from home just asked me how I was doing a day before it started to get really cold. I've been freezing my butt off!

Excuse me for fangirling, but fangirl I must!

So I finally started watching a drama again after being deprived for...two weeks. (But it's been two weeks!) I finished You're Beautiful, which was amazing! I didn't expect to like it (despite all the hype) and the drama was indeed ridiculous at times, but it was the good kind of ridiculous and I thoroughly enjoyed it! It is the only drama that has ever made me cry twice. I've added it to my mental list of favorites. ^^


Right now, I am watching SungKyunKwan Scandal, which I've been wanting to see for the longest time but was too busy for. It is a historical drama, but it is a historical drama that features YooChun, which makes it a different story. I am glad that he is in the drama because I never would have given it the chance otherwise!

This is the first time I'm watching a historical drama. It's a good thing too because I've been in the mood for it ever since I started taking my Gateway to East Asia class. I justify the time I spend watching this drama by telling myself that I am studying. And really, it's relevant! The drama takes place during the Choson period, which is a chapter that I just finished reading about in class. The drama is also all about scholars (yangban) taking the civil service examinations, which is also what we read about in class. The characters are also learning the Analects of Confucius, which hey, we went over in class too! Ho, ho! The drama even quoted Mencius at one point, which is one of the philosophers at the time. See how great this is? ^^ Now I just need to convince my professor to let us watch the drama during class...

Before starting the drama, I looked forward to seeing Song JoongKi's cute face and completely overlooked this guy:



Yoo Ah In. DUUUUUUUUUUDE. So I thought he was just the hottest thing ever. And I looked him up. Ad I realized that he was the pottymouth boxer in Antique Bakery. I could not believe it. I could not believe it was the same person (especially when I pride myself in recognizing faces!) Watching that movie, I thought he was the dorkiest person alive. But here he is...such a man! XD Is it funny that I actually prefer the way he looks in the drama than in a normal setting?


He's still cute, but. In the drama? *DIES*

Then there is Jun Tae Soo.


One thing I really enjoy about this drama is the close up of (gorgeous) faces. It puts more pressure on the actors to do a good job because this means I am constantly staring at their faces. Jun Tae Soo does a beautiful job of this because I can't tear my eyes away from his eyes. They are mean eyes. And sometimes, for a split second, you see kind eyes when he pretends to be nice to Yoon Hee. But it's only for a moment before he changes back to being mean. Watching his eyes alone blow me away. I feel that as an actor, that is where he has the most power. Props to Ha Ji Won's baby brother! ^^

And those are my thoughts for now. My sister gave away some spoilers (darn you!) but they were not spoilers that I didn't already see coming. I just need to mentally prepare myself for the hurt because there will be that quintessential love triangle coming up. Ah!