Firsts

I've already experienced many first being away from home during my first year in college. I'm now experiencing even more firsts in my figure drawing class.

1st class: I saw a naked man for the first time.
2nd class: I saw a dead male and female human body for the first time.

A naked man is okay, but.
I just came back from the second class.
I couldn't do it.
I can't draw a dead body.

Fun homework...finally!

It's when I have to go on Dramabeans for "research" that I realize I love my class! Haha! ^^

Everyone in class has to write an essay about the meanings behind a symbol randomly assigned to them. I was assigned to do research on what the "fox" meant in China, Japan, and Korea. My first thought? I need to start watching My Girlfriend is a Gumiho...quick! XD

Art history will be difficult because

1) Religion plays a big part in the history of art and I know nothing about any religion

2) The jargon/vocabulary makes it difficult to understand and read the textbook. Descriptions of the work leaves me at a loss and I could only stare at the images provided with the text. Gothic variation of Corinthian capital? Say whaa?

I'm taking this step by step and have already developed a vocabulary list in the back of my notebook. ^^ Rest assured, I will know what this all means by the end of this semester!

Horrible confession

The guy who had been crushing on me for half a year wanted to hang out today.
Instead, I stayed in my room to paint my nails and watch Joseph Gordon-Levitt sing Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance."

I am such a bitch. >_<

Friday

Ok, so it's Friday, my second week of Willamette, and my first week of classes.
I've had a stressful period concerning classes and so many worries.
But I think they're over.
At least for now.

I was generally happy with all of my classes except for Rites of Passage, which I dropped for

Introduction to Renaissance and Early Modern Art.

Rites of Passage was the one class I was really excited about because it is a joint class

between Willamette and TIUA students. But the first reading article assigned was ridiculous. I feel sorry for the

Japanese students because even I had a difficult time. I like the professor because he is a really nice guy and I know the class will be an easy 'A' because we have to go at the TIUA students' pace, but. I feel like I'm wasting my time. I couldn't bring myself to read the article because I don't feel like the content is important. I also found out later that I didn't really need the class either because I already fulfilled the Mode of Inquiry: Understanding Society requirement at school.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm digging myself into a bigger hole just because I know that I'm giving up an easy 'A' for more work. After meeting the professor, I know just how tough art history class will be tough. The professor was upset that I missed the first two classes (aka I have ALOT of catching up to do!) But I'm thankful that she pulled me in despite all of the odds. I will have to work very hard!

Writing this entry makes me realize just how much I overthink things because I was freaking out before, but my worries seem insignificant now that everything has worked out. ^^;

Talking to the freshmen earlier this afteroon also made me realize that I was never bored at Willamette. Well, sometimes I am bored in classes or meetings, but I was never bored when I had my own free time...eh, I keep myself busy enough! :)

My friends are all at the Beta Beach Blast right now. I actually went with them just to take a look and see what it was like... I left maybe five minutes after. It wasn't that great. I couldn't get into the dancing and music and the longer I stayed, the lamer I would feel because I wasn't really dancing. It makes me feel bad, but.

There's always a next time right?
I just need to get super wasted so I can lose my sense of self.
Drunk people are free to go nuts.
They have no shame. :)

End of Summer

Currently, I am happily riding on the HUT shuttle on my way from the Portland airport to Salem. I had missed my earlier 6:45am reservation and is late for work (!!!) but I hope I will be forgiven. I am so happy that the HUT has Wi-fi! ^^ So this is just a blah blah post to pass time because I'm going to be here for an hour...

It's weird to finally be back after three months. This was the longest summer vacation I've had in my entire life~ I learned and experienced new things (such as taking Korean class for one month, working part-time at a bakery, learning how to drive and swim) and also did nothing at the same time (literally lying around the living room being bored). I had an ample amount of time to do both! It was really nice! ^^

I had so much fun seeing my old high school friends and also my university friends. <3 Many people have told me that they want to go back to school already, but I wasn't as eager as them...the reason being that I just know my brain has turned into complete mush (my sister might argue that it has always been mush so nothing changed). XP But I digress! I was ready to go back on the day I was leaving so...it worked out perfectly! I was supposed to see my friends one last time this past Saturday night, but felt too down to go out. I didn't do much besides pack, which I finished quickly. Just sat on my lazy butt waiting for my flight. Hahaha.

My flight was surprisingly fairly pleasant, considering that it was Delta. No complaints. Yay!

I had many other things I wanted to say, but now that I have my laptop open, I can't remember! Hahahaha. Maybe later!

Ciaopanicstyle!

When I first started making layouts, I used to change them frequently because I tired of them easily. The previous one has been up since foreverrrrr but that's because I never got tired of it! Haha.

This layout was created by putting together a collage I made from various Japanese fashion magazines and a drawing I did this summer. While I was making the collage, I discovered a Japanese brand called Ciaopanic , which amused me greatly. A friend said that the name described me very well...and I thought this layout was also befitting the title because of it's chaotic-ness. It's too bad I couldn't find a place to write 'Ciaopanic' on the collage because there was already too much text. Ah well, at least those of you reading this know. ^^

I leave in a little more than a week! I need to stop being lazy and start being proactive! Yahhh!