I anticipated that April would be a stressful month, but that did not make it any less stressful for me to go through! The stress and lack of sleep has even caused me to become sick. I missed one day of school and many days of work. I know that I have to take better care of myself~

You would think that because it is the end of April, I would have made my college decision already...but no, I actually haven’t. I’ve talked to many people about the three schools, weighed the pros and cons of each one, compared financial aid letters, and thought and thought about it. In fact, it is what occupies my mind day and night. Throughout the month, I’ve reached moments when I thought I’ve finally made my decision. But I always end up surprising myself with one thing or the other...and right now, I’m back to square one!!! Tomorrow, I will see the college counselor and try to solve this crisis. I desperately want to end this headache once and for all!

I also desperately need to study for the upcoming AP Calculus exam, but a major case of senioritis hit me and I’ve been finding it extremely difficult to concentrate on studying.

Happier notes:



Tracy bought me a beautiful rose on Wednesday and came over to give it to me on the day I was sick. It was a ‘thank-you’ present for the earrings I bought her~ but she didn’t have to do this for me because that’s what a ‘present’ is supposed to be right? She is so sweet! <3

Sara invited me and another friend to her family barbeque on the beach today! It was my first barbeque and the food was so delicious!!! There were chicken drumsticks, short ribs, chicken and apple sausages (strange as that sounds, it’s insanely good and one of my favorites!), bacon wrapped mushrooms, grilled corn and asparagus, ocean salad, sushi, kimchi daikon, and of course, rice. YUM~! I spent the entire day eating and well, doing nothing. It was strange because I’m not used to doing ‘nothing’ but I guess I needed the break.

BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. G’NIGHT.