I was so close to deleting this blog.
Just because I've been at it for so long (since I was 15?) and what I post wasn't very interesting and somewhat depressing.
I'm afraid to read my older posts.
It makes me cringe!
>-<
Although I haven't been taking pictures lately (feeling uninspired!), I do feel inspired to at least write more.
Wednesday 4/27
- I skipped class for the second time in my life. It was a studio day. Since I didn't start filming yet, I had nothing to work on. These are excuses, I know, but I don't regret it.
- The mouse clickers on my new Dell laptop have been broken for the past two weeks, but a Dell technician finally came and fixed it! I didn't know Dell offered such services. ^-^ I really don't have any luck when it comes to electronics, do I? I'm only glad that it broke while I still have my warranty going... >-< The technician looked like my sister's age. I don't know why I expected an old man instead, but I was surprised. ^^; He took apart my entire laptop and it was a little frightening to see all the small parts and screws and wires...it makes me wonder, will you remember how to put it all back together? But he did and like magic, I can left and right click! Yay! I was almost getting used to using my touchpad, but it's nice to be able to click again. <3
- In the afternoon, I did a photoshoot with Kat and Ally's dolls. They're beautiful dolls and I'm thankful that they allowed me to use them. I hope the photographs come out well! ^-^
- I was invited to the Honors and Awards Ceremony in the evening and it turns out that I won a scholarship from the Japanese and Chinese department! ^-^ Yay! Fujiwara sensei said that it was a difficult decision because there were many good students so I'm very happy I was chosen! Ho ho! ^-^
- Cat helped me film my final video project after the ceremony was over at around 9PM. It will be dark and awesome! My previous videos have been lighthearted and kitschy (I like to make people smile), so this will be completely different. I hope to catch my professor by surprise. She likes this sort of thing. ^-^
- I called up my best friend back home to chat and it was really nice to hear her voice. <3 I can't wait to see her in a month~!
- I need to work with my roommate on her English pronunciation. =^-^= She was trying to explain a Japanese word to me and said what sounded like, "...a person who is sexless." I was very confused, so I glanced at her dictionary and realized that she was trying to say thankless. I had a good laugh!
Thursday (Today!)
- I got to sleep in for the first time because there was no Japanese class! It felt amazing! ^3^
- I had an orange and chocolate covered kakimochi (rice crackers) for breakfast. I didn't even know that chocolate kakimochi existed, but apparently they do and it works! I love sweet and salty snacks! ^o^
- I had a BIGGG lunch - the big bowl of the udon special with scallops and bacon okonomiyaki. Nom, nom, nom! I couldn't stop eating and now I'm so full! >-<
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Showing posts with label random. Show all posts
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Is it obvious that there's something wrong?
Here are just some random thoughts I had today.
- I felt faint today so I didn't feel like walking across campus, but I couldn't tell her that. I don't want them to roll my eyes and think of me as a weak person.
If she got upset, I won't offer an explanation because having them know the truth is more terrifying.
- You can underestimate good friends because they can read your mind even when you're pretending. And I pretend quite often. When I feel like dying, I will remember that I have friends like these.
- I pretend not because I'm a liar, but because of the 'secret,' the idea that believing something eventually makes it true. Applying this theory means that when you pretend to be okay, everything will be okay. But maybe it doesn't work very well.
- These past few weeks have been mentally and physically exhausting!!! No play! No sleep! Just do, do, do!
- My non-existent plans for the summer bother me so much. I want to be productive. I want to do something...truthfully, I want to study abroad in Korea. My long weeks of searching for scholarships have resulted in nothing. Where can I find $5000???
- I want to draw. But I don't have that kind of luxury right now.
- I FINISHED TWO MIDTERMS AND MY SECOND VIDEO PROJECT!!! I feel so accomplished. It was a terrible day that ended well.
- One more midterm and one day to study for it! Go, go, go!!!
- I felt faint today so I didn't feel like walking across campus, but I couldn't tell her that. I don't want them to roll my eyes and think of me as a weak person.
If she got upset, I won't offer an explanation because having them know the truth is more terrifying.
- You can underestimate good friends because they can read your mind even when you're pretending. And I pretend quite often. When I feel like dying, I will remember that I have friends like these.
- I pretend not because I'm a liar, but because of the 'secret,' the idea that believing something eventually makes it true. Applying this theory means that when you pretend to be okay, everything will be okay. But maybe it doesn't work very well.
- These past few weeks have been mentally and physically exhausting!!! No play! No sleep! Just do, do, do!
- My non-existent plans for the summer bother me so much. I want to be productive. I want to do something...truthfully, I want to study abroad in Korea. My long weeks of searching for scholarships have resulted in nothing. Where can I find $5000???
- I want to draw. But I don't have that kind of luxury right now.
- I FINISHED TWO MIDTERMS AND MY SECOND VIDEO PROJECT!!! I feel so accomplished. It was a terrible day that ended well.
- One more midterm and one day to study for it! Go, go, go!!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
It's Valentine's Day!
Or Single Awareness Day as some of my friends like to call it!
Although I am single, I am in a good mood today. ♪
Of course I want a boyfriend.
But it doesn't matter that I don't have one right now.
Many of my single friends feel bitter, but.
Ladies, it's not a big deal! ^^
I don't usually do anything for Valentine's Day, but this year I've prepared little cards with paper roses. I love my friends!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Such as sweetie!!!
...Tumblr has taken over. Does this blog suck or what? I hope it doesn't. :)
I still write...occasionally. Long text posts feel icky on Tumblr. And the truth is that I don't want to write a lot and reveal how stupid I am to the world. I still get excited about the small stuff and I can write all I want here! This blog is (hopefully) more private...I don't think much people bother to read this (except for really close friends.)
There is a hapa guy on campus who is tall, skinny, and has wild hair. Campus is small, so I've seen him a few times and thought he was really cute (baby cute, not hot cute). However, this was just based on shallow observation of his looks because I didn't know what kind of person he was. It turns out he is really sweet too!
I have a part-time job making deliveries and returns of technical equipment. Sometimes they get really difficult because you have to carry projector screens that are twice your height or push big and bulky carts. If you can manage that, you're fine. But the tricky part is opening doors while carrying the heavy stuff.
I had to pick up a cart at the library one morning and as I walked through the entrance, he shot me a big smile and said, "Hello!"
Not many strangers greet you in that way.
I felt like a cupid shot through my heart.
It was the a genuine happy-to-see-you smile.
It was beautiful.
When he saw me walking toward the entrance with the cart, he stood up from his seat behind the counter in a gesture to try to help me. But I got the door open so he slowly sat back down.
I couldn't stop smiling though. His smile made my morning. :)))
So that was...two months ago?
Tonight, I was on my way to buy some tea from the campus convenience store and he was walking in front of me. I quickly ran to the door and slipped in as he opened the door (I'm lazy like that and don't like to open doors myself haha). I had surprised him because he then turned around, saw me, and almost fell back with his arms flailing in the air as his long legs reached for balance. I think I made him feel bad for not holding the door open for me, but it was my own fault. When he recomposed himself, he opened the second door (double door entrance!) for me. I couldn't stop laughing. :)))
He is too cute!!!
I still write...occasionally. Long text posts feel icky on Tumblr. And the truth is that I don't want to write a lot and reveal how stupid I am to the world. I still get excited about the small stuff and I can write all I want here! This blog is (hopefully) more private...I don't think much people bother to read this (except for really close friends.)
There is a hapa guy on campus who is tall, skinny, and has wild hair. Campus is small, so I've seen him a few times and thought he was really cute (baby cute, not hot cute). However, this was just based on shallow observation of his looks because I didn't know what kind of person he was. It turns out he is really sweet too!
I have a part-time job making deliveries and returns of technical equipment. Sometimes they get really difficult because you have to carry projector screens that are twice your height or push big and bulky carts. If you can manage that, you're fine. But the tricky part is opening doors while carrying the heavy stuff.
I had to pick up a cart at the library one morning and as I walked through the entrance, he shot me a big smile and said, "Hello!"
Not many strangers greet you in that way.
I felt like a cupid shot through my heart.
It was the a genuine happy-to-see-you smile.
It was beautiful.
When he saw me walking toward the entrance with the cart, he stood up from his seat behind the counter in a gesture to try to help me. But I got the door open so he slowly sat back down.
I couldn't stop smiling though. His smile made my morning. :)))
So that was...two months ago?
Tonight, I was on my way to buy some tea from the campus convenience store and he was walking in front of me. I quickly ran to the door and slipped in as he opened the door (I'm lazy like that and don't like to open doors myself haha). I had surprised him because he then turned around, saw me, and almost fell back with his arms flailing in the air as his long legs reached for balance. I think I made him feel bad for not holding the door open for me, but it was my own fault. When he recomposed himself, he opened the second door (double door entrance!) for me. I couldn't stop laughing. :)))
He is too cute!!!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
I am a walking accident.
I bumped my head three times today.
And now my wrist is bleeding profusely from a big cut.
It was also hard to scrub or wash my hair because of my poor bruised head!
And now my wrist is bleeding profusely from a big cut.
It was also hard to scrub or wash my hair because of my poor bruised head!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Cold!!!
This morning, I burnt my hand with hot tea. But it was the first time I was okay with it because I thought that at least if my hand was on fire, they wouldn't be freezing in the cold.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
He taught me something...
You will meet all kinds of people going to a liberal arts college.
Coming here has definitely opened up my small mind.
I feel repetitive, but I can never stress this enough.
I'm a hypocrite in the way that I hate people who judge and make assumptions about others.
I didn't like the idea of people forming ideas about me that may not be true.
But I realize that it is an inevitable part of human nature to judge others.
Perhaps they are instinct from cavemen times?
Everyone likes to think that they are open minded, but appearances does count for something. It's what the eye sees first.
Having said all this, I just wanted to express how touched I felt tonight by someone who I've always felt a little uneasy around. I didn't know why he made me feel uncomfortable, but there is something a little...off about him. You will know it when you meet him. My friends make faces when I ask if they know him. He's different.
But he is really nice to me. We have the same birthday and the same double majors. After that, we could not be more different. I know he smokes. I know he parties. I know he does drugs. (But wait- doesn't almost everyone in college?) He's constantly laughing at me. (It makes me feel terrible to say this...since when did it become suspicious when people laugh all the time? What a world we live in!)
We have art history class and he wanted to study together.
I didn't take this too seriously and I almost didn't go.
But I'm so glad I did.
I was fifteen minutes late and he was standing out there in the cold, waiting for me.
When I came closer, I told him, "It's freezing!
You could have gone inside the library...Oh, did you want to smoke?"
He replied, "No, I didn't smoke because I knew I was meeting you."
People laughed when they saw us sitting at a table, saying that they never expected to ever see him in a library. He usually studied in the Kaneko Atrium. Then I realized he went out of his way for a ten minute walk over the tough sky bridge (that everyone hates) just to study with me when he could have stayed in Kaneko. (...on top of that, I made him wait...)
I was taken aback because I didn't expect this. I don't think I was mean, but I've never treated him particularly well. But he was very accepting of me, even though he knows what I think of him. He apologized at the end of our study session, saying that he couldn't help me when I've helped him so much. But he didn't realize that I did learn something. He was the bigger person.
P.S. I posted three entries in one day, but all three are completely unrelated. They are all about different people and different thoughts at different times. :)
Coming here has definitely opened up my small mind.
I feel repetitive, but I can never stress this enough.
I'm a hypocrite in the way that I hate people who judge and make assumptions about others.
I didn't like the idea of people forming ideas about me that may not be true.
But I realize that it is an inevitable part of human nature to judge others.
Perhaps they are instinct from cavemen times?
Everyone likes to think that they are open minded, but appearances does count for something. It's what the eye sees first.
Having said all this, I just wanted to express how touched I felt tonight by someone who I've always felt a little uneasy around. I didn't know why he made me feel uncomfortable, but there is something a little...off about him. You will know it when you meet him. My friends make faces when I ask if they know him. He's different.
But he is really nice to me. We have the same birthday and the same double majors. After that, we could not be more different. I know he smokes. I know he parties. I know he does drugs. (But wait- doesn't almost everyone in college?) He's constantly laughing at me. (It makes me feel terrible to say this...since when did it become suspicious when people laugh all the time? What a world we live in!)
We have art history class and he wanted to study together.
I didn't take this too seriously and I almost didn't go.
But I'm so glad I did.
I was fifteen minutes late and he was standing out there in the cold, waiting for me.
When I came closer, I told him, "It's freezing!
You could have gone inside the library...Oh, did you want to smoke?"
He replied, "No, I didn't smoke because I knew I was meeting you."
People laughed when they saw us sitting at a table, saying that they never expected to ever see him in a library. He usually studied in the Kaneko Atrium. Then I realized he went out of his way for a ten minute walk over the tough sky bridge (that everyone hates) just to study with me when he could have stayed in Kaneko. (...on top of that, I made him wait...)
I was taken aback because I didn't expect this. I don't think I was mean, but I've never treated him particularly well. But he was very accepting of me, even though he knows what I think of him. He apologized at the end of our study session, saying that he couldn't help me when I've helped him so much. But he didn't realize that I did learn something. He was the bigger person.
P.S. I posted three entries in one day, but all three are completely unrelated. They are all about different people and different thoughts at different times. :)
Love
Living in the kind of environment that I did, I've probably felt more anger, hate, and sadness in my life than happiness. People rarely treated me well.
So when someone is nice to me, I am surprised.
I also fall in love with them immediately.
This is the first time I've had so many people be nice to me.
I'm in love with everyone.
So when someone is nice to me, I am surprised.
I also fall in love with them immediately.
This is the first time I've had so many people be nice to me.
I'm in love with everyone.
Yay, I'm officially done with classes and work for today!
Dinner in 15 minutes and then the library to study for my art history midterm! This is how I feel about art history...always:
I'm deathly afraid. I studied for 8 hours on the first quiz (barely received an A) and studied 5 hours for the second quiz (received a B). This midterm just might kill me because I have to write two essays...and writing counts!
But no, I can do this! I don't want to jinx it, but life has been pretty sweet so far. Of course, I've had drama and my crazy-no-time-for-anything-shitty weeks, but the past three day weekend was exactly what I needed!
This is the first time in my life that I've had a guy friend who is so candid toward me, divulging not exactly what you would call secrets but things you don't tell everyone. I've made several guy friends since coming to college, but none of them have talked to me in this way before. He is very comfortable with me and can say whatever. I realize how precious that feeling is and it makes me feel very happy.
On another note, he never ceases to shock me with the things he says. I don't know why it surprises me, but I just never expect it or see it coming. Being with him is interesting and he feels the same about me (haha, I don't think I can remain mysterious for long though!)
I am conscious of being careful. I've broken off relationships with people last year and cried several times because it upset me so much. Now I am afraid of getting too close to people and make new friends because I don't want the same thing to happen. I hope the good relationships I have with everyone right now lasts. ^^
P.S. All of the heaters in Lausanne are broken. How ironic is it that the tech shop is located in Lausanne? And what is up with my history with broken heaters on the coldest days? A friend from home just asked me how I was doing a day before it started to get really cold. I've been freezing my butt off!
Dinner in 15 minutes and then the library to study for my art history midterm! This is how I feel about art history...always:
I'm deathly afraid. I studied for 8 hours on the first quiz (barely received an A) and studied 5 hours for the second quiz (received a B). This midterm just might kill me because I have to write two essays...and writing counts!
But no, I can do this! I don't want to jinx it, but life has been pretty sweet so far. Of course, I've had drama and my crazy-no-time-for-anything-shitty weeks, but the past three day weekend was exactly what I needed!
This is the first time in my life that I've had a guy friend who is so candid toward me, divulging not exactly what you would call secrets but things you don't tell everyone. I've made several guy friends since coming to college, but none of them have talked to me in this way before. He is very comfortable with me and can say whatever. I realize how precious that feeling is and it makes me feel very happy.
On another note, he never ceases to shock me with the things he says. I don't know why it surprises me, but I just never expect it or see it coming. Being with him is interesting and he feels the same about me (haha, I don't think I can remain mysterious for long though!)
I am conscious of being careful. I've broken off relationships with people last year and cried several times because it upset me so much. Now I am afraid of getting too close to people and make new friends because I don't want the same thing to happen. I hope the good relationships I have with everyone right now lasts. ^^
P.S. All of the heaters in Lausanne are broken. How ironic is it that the tech shop is located in Lausanne? And what is up with my history with broken heaters on the coldest days? A friend from home just asked me how I was doing a day before it started to get really cold. I've been freezing my butt off!
Friday, August 6, 2010
Sensitive Men
Many girls wish their guy was more sensitive.
But I don't blame men for not wanting to be sensitive.
Because honestly, all the sensitive men I know are made fun of.
Good night!
But I don't blame men for not wanting to be sensitive.
Because honestly, all the sensitive men I know are made fun of.
Good night!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I hate hippies!
I learned in psychology that it is a myth to pacify your anger by expressing it because showing anger simply breeds more anger. I find this to be true in many cases - when I rant, I sometimes feel even more angry and not at all better about whatever caused this anger. Because the problem doesn't go away. However, I'm not suggesting that it is a better solution to keep it inside because I know that is something I simply cannot do. My only solution right now is to run. The idea is that I make myself so physically exhausted that I don't have any more energy to be angry anymore. It usually works.
And...I'm getting way off topic, babbling about the subject of anger. Because it's the first time I've been angry since leaving home. I've felt hurt, sad, lonely, and scared, but those are the only negative emotions I've felt at school.
I am angry right now because people refuse to flush the toilets. I imagined this being a constant problem in elementary schools, but never at a respectable private university. This has been going on for several days and the sight of someone's waste sickens me. I decided to take action today by posting up signs prompting people to flush the toilet (y'know, in case they forgot?)
When I was showering tonight, I heard a whole bunch of girls complaining about these signs. They sounded so wronged, as if they've been unjustified.
"Oh, I can't believe these signs. How can I convey to people that we want to conserve water? Blah, blah, blah."
Dude.
Oh my gawd.
Like, shut the fuck up.
That is stupid. I understand wanting to be environmentally friendly, but this is too extreme. It's gross. It's unsanitary. There are better ways to conserve water. You want to save water? Why don't they stop showering? Maybe they can just bathe at the Mill Stream. OH WAIT. They don't shower. That's why the hallway stinks so much.
They made me feel like what I did was wrong, but my roommate supports my right to not want to look at other people's shit and my desire for a...less smelly hallway. It makes me happy that at least one person (thank goodness for my roommate!!!) agrees with me even though nobody else does.
I never knew I hated hippies.
BUT I HATE HIPPIES.
P.S. If you are a hippie, I can't be friends with you. Sometimes it breaks my heart because some of them are really nice people. But no, they need to respect me for not wanting to look at their waste first.
And...I'm getting way off topic, babbling about the subject of anger. Because it's the first time I've been angry since leaving home. I've felt hurt, sad, lonely, and scared, but those are the only negative emotions I've felt at school.
I am angry right now because people refuse to flush the toilets. I imagined this being a constant problem in elementary schools, but never at a respectable private university. This has been going on for several days and the sight of someone's waste sickens me. I decided to take action today by posting up signs prompting people to flush the toilet (y'know, in case they forgot?)
When I was showering tonight, I heard a whole bunch of girls complaining about these signs. They sounded so wronged, as if they've been unjustified.
"Oh, I can't believe these signs. How can I convey to people that we want to conserve water? Blah, blah, blah."
Dude.
Oh my gawd.
Like, shut the fuck up.
That is stupid. I understand wanting to be environmentally friendly, but this is too extreme. It's gross. It's unsanitary. There are better ways to conserve water. You want to save water? Why don't they stop showering? Maybe they can just bathe at the Mill Stream. OH WAIT. They don't shower. That's why the hallway stinks so much.
They made me feel like what I did was wrong, but my roommate supports my right to not want to look at other people's shit and my desire for a...less smelly hallway. It makes me happy that at least one person (thank goodness for my roommate!!!) agrees with me even though nobody else does.
I never knew I hated hippies.
BUT I HATE HIPPIES.
P.S. If you are a hippie, I can't be friends with you. Sometimes it breaks my heart because some of them are really nice people. But no, they need to respect me for not wanting to look at their waste first.
Monday, April 26, 2010
102 Post! :O
It's the end of the semester! As of right now, I'm just chilling...maybe a little too much? It makes me feel nervous when I feel like I have free time. But I have dedicated much of my time to planning various events...everything's finished now. Finals are coming up, but I'm not thinking about them right now. Maybe I should. Maybe I should start worrying and studying NOW so that I don't pay for it later by cramming.
I've been drama and manga deprived for the past four months (no wonder I was so unhappy! XD)
I've started watching Sunao ni Narenakute, which is a new drama currently airing in Japan. I felt like this drama was made for me because it stars all of my favorite people - Ueno Juri, eita, Tamayama Tetsuji, and even Jaejoong from DBSK! <333 It's fabulous!
I'm also reading Honey & Clover volume 7 after not touching a manga for five months. It's nice. *^^* People read scanslations, but I like to have the actual book in my hand. I don't know. It's more difficult to get into a manga through the computer. There are so many good quotes in the book~ <3 It reminds me that I should get started on Chantilly again...which I've completely abandoned. D:
I also got a tumblr because of peer pressure. It's fun. Now that I finally have one myself, I am afraid I might ditch this one. After all, who needs two blogs? ^^;
P.S. I found out that I don't like sculpture, which is surprising because I've always thought I would enjoy it. But I don't. I prefer to draw.
P.P.S. I should make a new layout. This drawing was something I did back in high school! @_@ (Which seems so far away when it was just last year...)
P.P.P.S. This is actually the 102nd post...wow, I didn't realize the point I reached past a hundred!
I've been drama and manga deprived for the past four months (no wonder I was so unhappy! XD)
I've started watching Sunao ni Narenakute, which is a new drama currently airing in Japan. I felt like this drama was made for me because it stars all of my favorite people - Ueno Juri, eita, Tamayama Tetsuji, and even Jaejoong from DBSK! <333 It's fabulous!
I'm also reading Honey & Clover volume 7 after not touching a manga for five months. It's nice. *^^* People read scanslations, but I like to have the actual book in my hand. I don't know. It's more difficult to get into a manga through the computer. There are so many good quotes in the book~ <3 It reminds me that I should get started on Chantilly again...which I've completely abandoned. D:
I also got a tumblr because of peer pressure. It's fun. Now that I finally have one myself, I am afraid I might ditch this one. After all, who needs two blogs? ^^;
P.S. I found out that I don't like sculpture, which is surprising because I've always thought I would enjoy it. But I don't. I prefer to draw.
P.P.S. I should make a new layout. This drawing was something I did back in high school! @_@ (Which seems so far away when it was just last year...)
P.P.P.S. This is actually the 102nd post...wow, I didn't realize the point I reached past a hundred!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
So
so
so
so
very
exhausted.
And I thought I would never get as exhausted and overwhelmed as the week of Sakura Matsuri.
Well, this is the week of Lu'au...
I have mixed feelings about the fact that there are only a few weeks left of school. I like that, but at the same time, I don't want to go home!
I also want to enjoy my last weeks of school before the semester ends, but I feel too tired to enjoy it right now. ><
so
so
so
very
exhausted.
And I thought I would never get as exhausted and overwhelmed as the week of Sakura Matsuri.
Well, this is the week of Lu'au...
I have mixed feelings about the fact that there are only a few weeks left of school. I like that, but at the same time, I don't want to go home!
I also want to enjoy my last weeks of school before the semester ends, but I feel too tired to enjoy it right now. ><
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Today's Happenings
- In art class, we are working on sculpture and I decided to replicate a shoyu container for my project because it was the only thing I had in my room. In creative writing class, the professor wrote "poetry" on the board and I misread it as "Pocky." (How much more Asian can I get?)
- Kayla gets really annoyed when people speak a language other than English, but when I accidentally speak Chinese or Japanese, she forgives me. (I am glad.)
- I was attacked by two TIUA girls earlier today shouting my name across the field. I did not know who they were, but they apparently knew me (and my name?!) They also asked me about my housing plans for next year... it was all so strange!
- Kayla gets really annoyed when people speak a language other than English, but when I accidentally speak Chinese or Japanese, she forgives me. (I am glad.)
- I was attacked by two TIUA girls earlier today shouting my name across the field. I did not know who they were, but they apparently knew me (and my name?!) They also asked me about my housing plans for next year... it was all so strange!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Shock
I found out at dinner today that one of my Building Bridges member's boyfriend is 34 years old.
She is 19 years old.
Apparently, she met him from her part-time job at the bookstore and they have been going out for six months before she left for America.
After seeing my reaction, she asked, "Are you in shock?"
Well...yeah.
I only hear about little girls (and she is literally smaller than me) and older men dating in manga or movies. She asks if this age gap difference was normal in America. Um, I don't think so?
She tells me that it is normal in Japan and that her best friend is currently dating a 45 year old man. He used to be their high school teacher.
It is all very puzzling to me.
She is 19 years old.
Apparently, she met him from her part-time job at the bookstore and they have been going out for six months before she left for America.
After seeing my reaction, she asked, "Are you in shock?"
Well...yeah.
I only hear about little girls (and she is literally smaller than me) and older men dating in manga or movies. She asks if this age gap difference was normal in America. Um, I don't think so?
She tells me that it is normal in Japan and that her best friend is currently dating a 45 year old man. He used to be their high school teacher.
It is all very puzzling to me.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Economics and Love
In my economics notebook, I was rewriting the law of diminishing marginal utility:
"As you consume more of a good, a point is eventually reached when your total utility will increase at a slower rate because of a fundamental psychological tendency for one's ability to appreciate more of the good to diminish,"
when this new thought came to me. Doesn't this definition also apply to love?
Of course, I do not have much experience with love so I wonder: Is love a fleeting thing? When you have too much of the other person, will you start to appreciate that person less over time?
"As you consume more of a good, a point is eventually reached when your total utility will increase at a slower rate because of a fundamental psychological tendency for one's ability to appreciate more of the good to diminish,"
when this new thought came to me. Doesn't this definition also apply to love?
Of course, I do not have much experience with love so I wonder: Is love a fleeting thing? When you have too much of the other person, will you start to appreciate that person less over time?
Saturday, March 6, 2010
You've heard me say that I'm busy before, but I am currently the busiest that I've ever been - so much that I even skipped class...for the first and only time in my life! D: I figured that since I didn't do homework, there would be no point in me going to class. All we do is sit for an hour and a half talking about the stories we're supposed to have read the previous night. It gets really frustrating at times, especially since the majority of our class is very quiet and the discussion isn't interesting. I also don't enjoy most of the stories I have to read for class.
The next few months will be busy, busy, busy! On top of classes with homework and exams to study for, I have Soran Bushi (traditional Japanese dance) practice on Monday nights, JSSL meetings on Tuesday afternoons and Tahitian dance practice on Tuesday nights, Shodo Club on Wednesday afternoons and Taiko Club on Wednesday nights, Sakura Matsuri Committee meetings on Thursday afternoons, and Sanshin lessons and Kobudo lessons on Friday afternoons. On top of all that, I also do have the occasional Asian Student Association meeting and Hawaii Club meeting to attend, as well as Hawaii Luau Committee Meetings every weekend. I am also a Building Bridges leader, so I have obligations to hang out with TIUA students every week (haha, not that I am complaining about anything...! :D)
This past Wednesday, I had my first Sanshin performance for Hina Matsuri (Girl's Day). I have to continue to practice for my second performance at Sakura Matsuri. I thought about dropping out of Kobudo, but Miwa sensei says she expects me to do a Kobudo demonstration at Sakura Matsuri as well (!!!)
There were many times I felt like dying, but I know that it was my decision to be involved in all of this.
I've been exhausted...yet my friend still managed to convince me to go on an overnight stay at Thetford Lodge 45 minutes away from campus. We left on Friday night and returned Saturday afternoon. We did not do much, but I really enjoyed myself. There were only seven girls, including me, so it was like a slumber party. I am really glad that I went because it was a nice, relaxing break from the stress of campus life.
Next week, I will be volunteering at a local elementary school and sharing Japanese culture with the students there. Apparently, it's their "reward" for being good in class, haha. Wow, a presentation by me? :D I feel flattered, haha.
The next few months will be busy, busy, busy! On top of classes with homework and exams to study for, I have Soran Bushi (traditional Japanese dance) practice on Monday nights, JSSL meetings on Tuesday afternoons and Tahitian dance practice on Tuesday nights, Shodo Club on Wednesday afternoons and Taiko Club on Wednesday nights, Sakura Matsuri Committee meetings on Thursday afternoons, and Sanshin lessons and Kobudo lessons on Friday afternoons. On top of all that, I also do have the occasional Asian Student Association meeting and Hawaii Club meeting to attend, as well as Hawaii Luau Committee Meetings every weekend. I am also a Building Bridges leader, so I have obligations to hang out with TIUA students every week (haha, not that I am complaining about anything...! :D)
This past Wednesday, I had my first Sanshin performance for Hina Matsuri (Girl's Day). I have to continue to practice for my second performance at Sakura Matsuri. I thought about dropping out of Kobudo, but Miwa sensei says she expects me to do a Kobudo demonstration at Sakura Matsuri as well (!!!)
There were many times I felt like dying, but I know that it was my decision to be involved in all of this.
I've been exhausted...yet my friend still managed to convince me to go on an overnight stay at Thetford Lodge 45 minutes away from campus. We left on Friday night and returned Saturday afternoon. We did not do much, but I really enjoyed myself. There were only seven girls, including me, so it was like a slumber party. I am really glad that I went because it was a nice, relaxing break from the stress of campus life.
Next week, I will be volunteering at a local elementary school and sharing Japanese culture with the students there. Apparently, it's their "reward" for being good in class, haha. Wow, a presentation by me? :D I feel flattered, haha.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
I've been meeting so much new people these past few weeks! ^^ I don't remember ever having to say, "My name is...nice to meet you!" so many times, haha. But it has been fun! I'm trying my best not to be my usual awkward self.
Last Friday was The Black Tie Affair. It really was like prom all over again! It was an okay night. I borrowed my roommate's dress because nothing at the mall fit me (the smallest size they carry is 3! How can that be? D:) My roommate's dress was XS so it fit me better, but it was still a tad bit loose. I had to do some sewing to tighten it and then it fit perfectly. ^___^ The funny thing is that I look exactly the same as I did during my high school senior prom night. I had my hair done in curls, my make-up the same, and my dress dark blue.
On Saturday night, I went on an ice skating trip from 8pm - 12am. By 11pm, I was so pooped that I spent the night talking to the TIUAs than actually skating. I still remember the time I fell on my bum so hard that I developed bruises. I was deathly afraid of the ice and of falling. >_< My friends were great and held hands with me, though. I felt touched. <3
On Sunday, I asked Aska to be my language partner! She is really adorable. She looks like she popped out from an anime or manga. We are also both left handed, but use our right hand to write calligraphy (!!!) I also learned that she is from Mitaka and that she is a big Ghibli fan!!! She met Miyazaki himself when she was in elementary school! It was on the opening day of the museum so the man himself was there to shake hands with people and take pictures. I am so jealous~! <3 It seems so appropriate for a cute girl like her to be from a cute town like Mitaka. If I lived in Japan, that is where I would want to live. It is a very peaceful, quaint, and charming town. And if I ever start to miss the crowds or the city-like atmosphere (like Harajuku), it is easily accessible by train. ^^ Anyway, we spent quite some time squealing about Ghibli together.
In Japanese class today, we started learning transitive and intransitive verbs. The teacher gave the lesson in English first to serve as an example, but I had a difficult time understanding it (!!!) D: I think I might need to go borrow an English grammar book before attempting to learn Japanese grammar.
Last Friday was The Black Tie Affair. It really was like prom all over again! It was an okay night. I borrowed my roommate's dress because nothing at the mall fit me (the smallest size they carry is 3! How can that be? D:) My roommate's dress was XS so it fit me better, but it was still a tad bit loose. I had to do some sewing to tighten it and then it fit perfectly. ^___^ The funny thing is that I look exactly the same as I did during my high school senior prom night. I had my hair done in curls, my make-up the same, and my dress dark blue.
On Saturday night, I went on an ice skating trip from 8pm - 12am. By 11pm, I was so pooped that I spent the night talking to the TIUAs than actually skating. I still remember the time I fell on my bum so hard that I developed bruises. I was deathly afraid of the ice and of falling. >_< My friends were great and held hands with me, though. I felt touched. <3
On Sunday, I asked Aska to be my language partner! She is really adorable. She looks like she popped out from an anime or manga. We are also both left handed, but use our right hand to write calligraphy (!!!) I also learned that she is from Mitaka and that she is a big Ghibli fan!!! She met Miyazaki himself when she was in elementary school! It was on the opening day of the museum so the man himself was there to shake hands with people and take pictures. I am so jealous~! <3 It seems so appropriate for a cute girl like her to be from a cute town like Mitaka. If I lived in Japan, that is where I would want to live. It is a very peaceful, quaint, and charming town. And if I ever start to miss the crowds or the city-like atmosphere (like Harajuku), it is easily accessible by train. ^^ Anyway, we spent quite some time squealing about Ghibli together.
In Japanese class today, we started learning transitive and intransitive verbs. The teacher gave the lesson in English first to serve as an example, but I had a difficult time understanding it (!!!) D: I think I might need to go borrow an English grammar book before attempting to learn Japanese grammar.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Happy, happy, happy!
I feel very happy and fortunate right now. Life has turned 180 for me because it sucked this past week. I felt alone, lost, and overwhelmed by all the work I had. When I am alone, I start to generate many negative thoughts. But many happy things happened to boost my sense of self!
First of all, I received praise from both my art and creative writing professor on my work. I am not highly confident in either area, but it makes me happy that they like it. On Tuesday, a naked pregnant lady came in for drawing. In the beginning, I was like, "Oh my gosh, she's going to be naked naked naked." But it wasn't a big deal at all and I actually enjoyed it very much! I always feel like the short stories I write are crap, but Professor Powers always writes nice comments about each one! I don't know if she sincerely meant them, but I will believe what she writes! Haha.
Second of all, somebody told me today that he respects me! This comment was a casual remark made by someone I just met, but it sent me soaring through the heavens above earth toward cloud nine. I shouldn't have, but I got really excited about it. Excited enough to run to my friend's room across campus to do the happy dance and tell her all about it! Maybe I got excited because 1) He resembles one of my favorite actors and 2) I really respect him as well. He is a very easy person to talk to, which also makes me very happy. There are just some people that are much easier to approach and it feels great to meet people I can easily converse with. It doesn't happen too often!
Someone else has also recently told me that he respects me. However, I did not get as excited about this. Perhaps it is because I feel that this is undeserved respect. I was really surprised because this person constantly bothers me online, but never actually talks to me when he sees me. My friends tell me that he does not approach me because he is shy. He should not be intimidated by me! It is because he doesn't know me that he probably formed the wrong impression of me! Haha.
Third, a close friend told me last night that I am an awesome person to talk to and another friend said the same thing tonight!
And last but not least...my crush came to taiko practice tonight and shared a drum with me! He is seriously the best looking guy and the best dresser I've ever seen in my entire life. He is more attractive than all of the boys in Hawaii. He is more attractive than all of the boys I've seen in school here. He's plain HOT.
Although it was his first time playing, he is very good and had powerful strikes! I hope he comes again and again! I will never miss a single taiko practice this semester!
I am so happy! ヾ(^▽^)ノ
Kayla says I should direct all this happy energy I have toward studying for my economics exam on Friday, but you can see that I got distracted by blogging instead. XP
But I will ACE that exam!
First of all, I received praise from both my art and creative writing professor on my work. I am not highly confident in either area, but it makes me happy that they like it. On Tuesday, a naked pregnant lady came in for drawing. In the beginning, I was like, "Oh my gosh, she's going to be naked naked naked." But it wasn't a big deal at all and I actually enjoyed it very much! I always feel like the short stories I write are crap, but Professor Powers always writes nice comments about each one! I don't know if she sincerely meant them, but I will believe what she writes! Haha.
Second of all, somebody told me today that he respects me! This comment was a casual remark made by someone I just met, but it sent me soaring through the heavens above earth toward cloud nine. I shouldn't have, but I got really excited about it. Excited enough to run to my friend's room across campus to do the happy dance and tell her all about it! Maybe I got excited because 1) He resembles one of my favorite actors and 2) I really respect him as well. He is a very easy person to talk to, which also makes me very happy. There are just some people that are much easier to approach and it feels great to meet people I can easily converse with. It doesn't happen too often!
Someone else has also recently told me that he respects me. However, I did not get as excited about this. Perhaps it is because I feel that this is undeserved respect. I was really surprised because this person constantly bothers me online, but never actually talks to me when he sees me. My friends tell me that he does not approach me because he is shy. He should not be intimidated by me! It is because he doesn't know me that he probably formed the wrong impression of me! Haha.
Third, a close friend told me last night that I am an awesome person to talk to and another friend said the same thing tonight!
And last but not least...my crush came to taiko practice tonight and shared a drum with me! He is seriously the best looking guy and the best dresser I've ever seen in my entire life. He is more attractive than all of the boys in Hawaii. He is more attractive than all of the boys I've seen in school here. He's plain HOT.
Although it was his first time playing, he is very good and had powerful strikes! I hope he comes again and again! I will never miss a single taiko practice this semester!
I am so happy! ヾ(^▽^)ノ
Kayla says I should direct all this happy energy I have toward studying for my economics exam on Friday, but you can see that I got distracted by blogging instead. XP
But I will ACE that exam!
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