The scariest thought for me is imagining what it would be like if I did not go to Willamette. Until the last minute, I never felt like I truly chose Willamette - it just happened because the other schools became unappealing. I had doubts about whether I was making the right decision to come to Oregon because I came blind, having never visited campus and not knowing anyone at the school. The student population is smaller than my high school and consisted of only 7% Asians. I was worried that I would not be able to make friends who share the same interests as me. All of my close friends in Hawaii chose to stay in Hawaii. I was the only one in the group leaving. It would have been the safe decision.
But I am glad I stepped out of my comfort zone because I could not have been more wrong about everything! Everything I was worried about came out to be the exact opposite so it is working out great for me. :)
During the first two months at Willamette, I became so close to four people that it felt like we have been together for years rather than...two months. What would four years feel like? I guess it is different from back home, since we live on campus. We'll be seeing each other whether we like it or not! XD It is strange that many of my friends here are guys, when I barely had any guy friends at home and when there are more girls than boys attending school. In fact, the two people who I feel closest to and who have the most in common with me are guys. But it makes me happy.
In the first two months, we were really clique-y (even named ourselves "AwesomeSauceScooter Gang" or "ASS Gang" for short). They make me laugh so hard and so often, more than I have ever laughed back at home or in my life. We were together almost 24/7. I would return to my dorm to sleep around 2 AM, only to wake up at 7AM to join them for breakfast the next morning. I guess that is the exciting part of college life! There is really no one to tell you what to do; you are responsible for yourself. It makes me happy.
Fortunately, I no longer only stay in my room for five hours to sleep. I know it is not healthy and I would have died if I kept this up. The funny thing is that I felt closer to everyone in the first two months than now. There seems to be a divide in our group between the Hawaii kids and the mainland kids. Again, I am stuck in the middle because I do not like this division at all. I do not like the idea of our group breaking up. Ugh, drama. It always happens.
We did plan a Disneyland trip for spring break. I am hoping it will happen because it would be my first road trip, my first time in California, and my first time at an amusment park. Woot.
I really hope we do not get sick of each other. I really hope I am simply overthinking things because it is the only thing making me sad.
6 comments:
^_^ always glad to hear that you're having fun and enjoying yourself.
Chill... my dear sister. Don't over-analyze things okay? Akuna Matata. :D
You're Jenny! Thank you. Akuna matata~ ^^
*You're right Jenny! Lol.
Only now I read this. >< I totally forgot. But I'm so glad that you had such an awesome time at Oregon. :) And that Disneyland trip sounds exiciting! I'm glad that the things you were worried about before leaving turned out to be fine. You're a very lovable person. X)
i'm a first-year in a liberal-arts college in iowa and i would have to say, i know how you feel. the nice thing about college [I feel] is that there's no need to worry about staying in cliques. those break-off eventually. what's nice is that we're mature enough to deal w/ clique-less lifestyle while still remaining close to our friends.
in all honesty, i was considering applying to williamette univ, but i got accepted by grinnell college for early decision :)
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