アロハ GIRL: What am I trying to say? Do I really want this to be my first post for the New Year...?

It is funny how absolutely BORED I was between Christmas and New Year's while I'm swamped with work now! Last week, I was a slave to my dramas and I did nothing else. Although I had plans to do this and that, I was stuck in a slump and did not feel motivated to do anything at all. D: It did not make sense because there was a point in time when I did not feel like talking to anyone or seeing anyone...but I started to feel very lonely and depressed staying at home all day.

I had many friends and yet no one I could call since my close friends have boyfriends or jobs.
I like to have space, but at the same time, I do not like being alone.

It was driving me a little crazy!

I need some kind of human interaction (besides my impassive brother and my nagging mother!)

I finally started reading Kimi ni Todoke (From Me to You) by Karuho Shiina. The plot was very similar to Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge (also known as The Wallflower under its U.S. release) by Tomoko Hayakawa, which I did not like, so I was a little hesitant to read Kimi ni Todoke. In the series, Sawako Kuronuma, the main character, is a social outcast. A freak. She scares people away with her face, she is shy, and she is always amazed when someone is nice to her.

She is a pretty extreme character...but I can relate to her!
(Doesn't this say something?!)

(It is a mere coincidence that we have the same hairstyle, right?)

*dies*

I am still very awkward with most people and it takes me the longest time to open up. I wish I could say that I am an easy going person, but if you are reading this, you probably would have realized that I am not. When I met up with some friends for a quick Zippy's dinner and Krazy Karaoke on Wednesday night, I had lots of fun, but still felt...stiff compared to everyone else. I think I was stuck at home for too long, dangerously leaving too much room for paranoia to grow and leaving me alone with my weird (potentially negative) thoughts. It is not healthy being around my mother (the most negative person in the world) for too long, haha. ^^;

Joyce actually saved me from my misery this past Tuesday by driving me to Ewa (Sandy) Beach. I have never been there before and going to new places are always exciting! We had fun burying our toes into the soft sand, watching the ocean waves crash onto shore, feeling the salty winds mess up our long hair, writing names with our foot in the sand, and of course, taking plenty of pictures.

Donna from Portland sent me a snow picture (!!!) so I wanted to send her a beach picture (with her name in it, of course). ^^

I felt touched that Joyce took me out even though she was supposed to hang out with her boyfriend (some of my other girlfriends aren't that nice!) ^^ I ended up intruding on what otherwise might have been a romantic date later for them that night, hehe!

We had dinner at Nordstrom Cafe and all ordered panini sandwiches! I've always wanted to try a panini sandwich because it looks so delish and the one I had did not disappoint!