Here are just some random thoughts I had today.
- I felt faint today so I didn't feel like walking across campus, but I couldn't tell her that. I don't want them to roll my eyes and think of me as a weak person.
If she got upset, I won't offer an explanation because having them know the truth is more terrifying.
- You can underestimate good friends because they can read your mind even when you're pretending. And I pretend quite often. When I feel like dying, I will remember that I have friends like these.
- I pretend not because I'm a liar, but because of the 'secret,' the idea that believing something eventually makes it true. Applying this theory means that when you pretend to be okay, everything will be okay. But maybe it doesn't work very well.
- These past few weeks have been mentally and physically exhausting!!! No play! No sleep! Just do, do, do!
- My non-existent plans for the summer bother me so much. I want to be productive. I want to do something...truthfully, I want to study abroad in Korea. My long weeks of searching for scholarships have resulted in nothing. Where can I find $5000???
- I want to draw. But I don't have that kind of luxury right now.
- I FINISHED TWO MIDTERMS AND MY SECOND VIDEO PROJECT!!! I feel so accomplished. It was a terrible day that ended well.
- One more midterm and one day to study for it! Go, go, go!!!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
It's Valentine's Day!
Or Single Awareness Day as some of my friends like to call it!
Although I am single, I am in a good mood today. ♪
Of course I want a boyfriend.
But it doesn't matter that I don't have one right now.
Many of my single friends feel bitter, but.
Ladies, it's not a big deal! ^^
I don't usually do anything for Valentine's Day, but this year I've prepared little cards with paper roses. I love my friends!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Tamao!
So I expected today to be a highly stressful day because my new roommate was arriving and I would be performing a Taiko song I wasn't sure I knew. And it was because I received some distressing news from a friend that one of my friends think I'm flirting with the boy she likes (RIDICULOUS!) This kind of ruined my day because I now realize why she acts irritated with me all the time and why I've been feeling down. She plans to confess to him on Valentine's Day so I really hope everything goes well~ I can't waitttttt. You can never truly escape high school drama.
Anyway, a really nerve-wracking day turned out fabulous because the performance went well and my new roommate is so awesome! ^_^ I've been a jerk about getting a new roommate for a while. People ask me if I'm excited, but I realized that I never really get excited about things until that time actually comes.
And she is A RIOT. She complained woefully that a Brazilian boy she stayed with in New Zealand once called her a "crazy girl." Well, yeah. XD
So she's really athletic - she was the president of kendo club and she does badminton and swimming and a bunch of other things that I can't remember. @___@ We talked about boys. She already has her eyes on a blonde boy she met in the kitchen - she calls him the "tea boy." XD How cute is that? He was boiling water to make tea. She's fast, huh?
For some reason, we got onto the topic of Soran Bushi and we even had a little Soran Bushi dance craze for a while. She was very strict with the moves too. XD
And the best thing of all?!
She's a fan of Tohoshinki!!!
Kyahh!
She likes Jaejoong!
LOL.
She suggested we do a Tohoshinki karaoke session so we sang a bunch of songs on Youtube (LOL). Her favorite song was "Stand by You." I showed her "Love in the Ice" and she cried watching their performance. She also teared up watching "Lion Heart." I showed her pictures of Jaejoong from the JYJ concert in Las Vegas and she accidentally hit her head against the bed post in excitement! LOL.
She is so much fun and I've never laughed so much. It's weird to see that my previously empty room is now preoccupied with such a strange girl. This semester will be interestingggg!
Anyway, a really nerve-wracking day turned out fabulous because the performance went well and my new roommate is so awesome! ^_^ I've been a jerk about getting a new roommate for a while. People ask me if I'm excited, but I realized that I never really get excited about things until that time actually comes.
And she is A RIOT. She complained woefully that a Brazilian boy she stayed with in New Zealand once called her a "crazy girl." Well, yeah. XD
So she's really athletic - she was the president of kendo club and she does badminton and swimming and a bunch of other things that I can't remember. @___@ We talked about boys. She already has her eyes on a blonde boy she met in the kitchen - she calls him the "tea boy." XD How cute is that? He was boiling water to make tea. She's fast, huh?
For some reason, we got onto the topic of Soran Bushi and we even had a little Soran Bushi dance craze for a while. She was very strict with the moves too. XD
And the best thing of all?!
She's a fan of Tohoshinki!!!
Kyahh!
She likes Jaejoong!
LOL.
She suggested we do a Tohoshinki karaoke session so we sang a bunch of songs on Youtube (LOL). Her favorite song was "Stand by You." I showed her "Love in the Ice" and she cried watching their performance. She also teared up watching "Lion Heart." I showed her pictures of Jaejoong from the JYJ concert in Las Vegas and she accidentally hit her head against the bed post in excitement! LOL.
She is so much fun and I've never laughed so much. It's weird to see that my previously empty room is now preoccupied with such a strange girl. This semester will be interestingggg!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Recently
It has been about three weeks since school started. The first week was horrible because I felt incredibly depressed, lonely, and homesick without really knowing why I felt that way exactly... But my friends have been throwing a party every weekend, which helped me get out of that slump! ^_^
Classes this semester are TOUGH. The subjects are foreign to me, especially photography and video art, so I especially need to work hard. I have the same professor for the two classes so I see her three times a week (in a row!) I always feel lost in her classes and it scares me. The problem is that her taste in art does not exactly suit mine, but I need to make it suit mine in order for me to pass with an 'A.' She likes photography and video art pieces that are quite disturbing and uncomfortable for viewers...it makes me want to cry. I admit. I like conventional art. What's wrong with liking things that are pretty?
People here can't tell Asians apart. I'm not offended at all - it's rather funny. Chelsie and I went to have brunch one day. The woman taking orders ignored me and talked to the person behind me. When she saw that I was still standing there, she asked me, "Did you want to order something else?"
I gave her my order and proceeded to wait with Chelsie at the end of the counter. After a few minutes, the woman came up to us and told us that she had made the mistake of canceling Chelsie's order and putting my order up instead because she thought we were the same person! (And trust me, we look nothing alike and dress differently.) It's no wonder she didn't initially take my order because Chelsie had already ordered! I overheard her telling the chef, "They look the same! The same!" My supervisor also occasionally makes the mistake of calling me Haylee (another Asian who works in the office).
In other news...things are finally starting to pick up. I'll be thrown into that super busy schedule again! Lu'au is coming up! Club activities too! Ah! And my new roommate will be arriving from Japan in three days! It'll be weird having a roommate again. People said that it's lonely without one, but I love it! Now I have to stop being selfish. XD
Classes this semester are TOUGH. The subjects are foreign to me, especially photography and video art, so I especially need to work hard. I have the same professor for the two classes so I see her three times a week (in a row!) I always feel lost in her classes and it scares me. The problem is that her taste in art does not exactly suit mine, but I need to make it suit mine in order for me to pass with an 'A.' She likes photography and video art pieces that are quite disturbing and uncomfortable for viewers...it makes me want to cry. I admit. I like conventional art. What's wrong with liking things that are pretty?
People here can't tell Asians apart. I'm not offended at all - it's rather funny. Chelsie and I went to have brunch one day. The woman taking orders ignored me and talked to the person behind me. When she saw that I was still standing there, she asked me, "Did you want to order something else?"
I gave her my order and proceeded to wait with Chelsie at the end of the counter. After a few minutes, the woman came up to us and told us that she had made the mistake of canceling Chelsie's order and putting my order up instead because she thought we were the same person! (And trust me, we look nothing alike and dress differently.) It's no wonder she didn't initially take my order because Chelsie had already ordered! I overheard her telling the chef, "They look the same! The same!" My supervisor also occasionally makes the mistake of calling me Haylee (another Asian who works in the office).
In other news...things are finally starting to pick up. I'll be thrown into that super busy schedule again! Lu'au is coming up! Club activities too! Ah! And my new roommate will be arriving from Japan in three days! It'll be weird having a roommate again. People said that it's lonely without one, but I love it! Now I have to stop being selfish. XD
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Trying not to neglect!
Dude.
I seriously fail at this blog.
Complete fail.
Sometimes, I feel like I don't really care about it that much. Because Tumblr is just that much cooler, funner, and addicting.
I still need this when I have long text posts I want to do, though. Still don't feel comfortable writing alot on Tumblr. ;)
Anyway, I had a lovely dinner with everyone from work at Marco Polo, the only Chinese restaurant I've been in Salem that hasn't failed completely. I ordered the walnut chicken, but only because I really wanted to eat roasted walnuts drizzled in honey. That's the best kind of stuff!
And then I ended up watching two episodes of Glee with Chelsie. I've never watched Glee before and just jumped right into the Christmas episode. Fun!
We went to a party afterward and exchanged Secret Santa gifts. I've exchanged Christmas gifts before, but at this one particular moment, I thought, "Oh. This is what Christmas is."
Somehow, I thought I felt Christmas for the first time, but it's really hard to explain. My Secret Santa turned out to be a freshman boy and my gift was three pairs of knee-high pink socks. Honestly, I don't think he knew what a good gift for me would be at all but he tried and I love him anyway because he's adorable. He accidentally left his overdue library card inside, lol! I was so confused after unwrapping it. :P
I stayed up till 4~5am that night (or morning) for no reason. I was talking to my roommate and just didn't feel like sleeping. I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to wake up the next morning, but I knew I had taiko practice and that would force me to get up. And I did at 8:30am.
It was our last performance with the TIUA students before they returned to Japan. It generally went well, despite the slippery floors (we played outdoors when it was raining!) I had also pulled a butt muscle from running around in the rain in high heeled boots.
We were also given a short break to check out the flea market and I spent less than $20! Awesome.
We had a party that night at Kaoru's place. She and her husband own a vineyard so everyone was hoping to taste some of her wine...hehe!
She lived in a perfect house and I loved her living room. so. very. much.
I could imagine myself setting an easel in the middle of the room, painting Jaejoong or some other cute boy, while blasting JYJ on those amazing speakers.
And the food!
Oh my gosh, the food!!!
Okay, so I've been to nice restaurants and various other 'fancy' events that served 'fancy' food numerous times since coming to college, but I never thought the food actually tasted better really. Most of the time, everything looked better than it tasted. I was always disappointed. There was food in two different rooms and they just kept coming!
But this food was ah-ma-zing!!! So much wonderful desserts. We made okonomiyaki. Later, there were chicken drumsticks and pizza. And then this mysterious stew! No one really knew what it was exactly, except that it was heaven on earth. And the bread was incredibly soft. I loved the cheese spread. And there was this other almond-bacon-cheese spread on crackers that was interesting!
It was a sophisticated adult party (it wasn't just us taiko kids there) with wine. I tried some blushing champagne, which was pink with a frothy surface. It was really pretty~ my kind of drink! And then I tried the red wine that Kaoru recommended. It had a really strong smell and taste. I'm trying to ease myself into getting used to alcohol because I'm not liking it too much right now...but I'm trying some and being careful. :)
Too much fun in two days. I have a final on Monday. So I will have to have have to be serious tomorrow. Fo' sho!
I seriously fail at this blog.
Complete fail.
Sometimes, I feel like I don't really care about it that much. Because Tumblr is just that much cooler, funner, and addicting.
I still need this when I have long text posts I want to do, though. Still don't feel comfortable writing alot on Tumblr. ;)
Anyway, I had a lovely dinner with everyone from work at Marco Polo, the only Chinese restaurant I've been in Salem that hasn't failed completely. I ordered the walnut chicken, but only because I really wanted to eat roasted walnuts drizzled in honey. That's the best kind of stuff!
And then I ended up watching two episodes of Glee with Chelsie. I've never watched Glee before and just jumped right into the Christmas episode. Fun!
We went to a party afterward and exchanged Secret Santa gifts. I've exchanged Christmas gifts before, but at this one particular moment, I thought, "Oh. This is what Christmas is."
Somehow, I thought I felt Christmas for the first time, but it's really hard to explain. My Secret Santa turned out to be a freshman boy and my gift was three pairs of knee-high pink socks. Honestly, I don't think he knew what a good gift for me would be at all but he tried and I love him anyway because he's adorable. He accidentally left his overdue library card inside, lol! I was so confused after unwrapping it. :P
I stayed up till 4~5am that night (or morning) for no reason. I was talking to my roommate and just didn't feel like sleeping. I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to wake up the next morning, but I knew I had taiko practice and that would force me to get up. And I did at 8:30am.
It was our last performance with the TIUA students before they returned to Japan. It generally went well, despite the slippery floors (we played outdoors when it was raining!) I had also pulled a butt muscle from running around in the rain in high heeled boots.
We were also given a short break to check out the flea market and I spent less than $20! Awesome.
We had a party that night at Kaoru's place. She and her husband own a vineyard so everyone was hoping to taste some of her wine...hehe!
She lived in a perfect house and I loved her living room. so. very. much.
I could imagine myself setting an easel in the middle of the room, painting Jaejoong or some other cute boy, while blasting JYJ on those amazing speakers.
And the food!
Oh my gosh, the food!!!
Okay, so I've been to nice restaurants and various other 'fancy' events that served 'fancy' food numerous times since coming to college, but I never thought the food actually tasted better really. Most of the time, everything looked better than it tasted. I was always disappointed. There was food in two different rooms and they just kept coming!
But this food was ah-ma-zing!!! So much wonderful desserts. We made okonomiyaki. Later, there were chicken drumsticks and pizza. And then this mysterious stew! No one really knew what it was exactly, except that it was heaven on earth. And the bread was incredibly soft. I loved the cheese spread. And there was this other almond-bacon-cheese spread on crackers that was interesting!
It was a sophisticated adult party (it wasn't just us taiko kids there) with wine. I tried some blushing champagne, which was pink with a frothy surface. It was really pretty~ my kind of drink! And then I tried the red wine that Kaoru recommended. It had a really strong smell and taste. I'm trying to ease myself into getting used to alcohol because I'm not liking it too much right now...but I'm trying some and being careful. :)
Too much fun in two days. I have a final on Monday. So I will have to have have to be serious tomorrow. Fo' sho!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Cyber Monday Purchases
Khaki Pleated Shorts
Sun Kissed Ruffled Shorts
Pink Studio "Parissa" Basket Weave Wedges
I bought things that I've been wanting for a long time so I'm really happy I got them. ^^
I also bought my new laptop for $650 (originally $850!) I loved my Dell Studio so I bought another one, only fancier with higher performance configurations. :) You can customize various parts of your laptop at Dell. It's awesome!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Such as sweetie!!!
...Tumblr has taken over. Does this blog suck or what? I hope it doesn't. :)
I still write...occasionally. Long text posts feel icky on Tumblr. And the truth is that I don't want to write a lot and reveal how stupid I am to the world. I still get excited about the small stuff and I can write all I want here! This blog is (hopefully) more private...I don't think much people bother to read this (except for really close friends.)
There is a hapa guy on campus who is tall, skinny, and has wild hair. Campus is small, so I've seen him a few times and thought he was really cute (baby cute, not hot cute). However, this was just based on shallow observation of his looks because I didn't know what kind of person he was. It turns out he is really sweet too!
I have a part-time job making deliveries and returns of technical equipment. Sometimes they get really difficult because you have to carry projector screens that are twice your height or push big and bulky carts. If you can manage that, you're fine. But the tricky part is opening doors while carrying the heavy stuff.
I had to pick up a cart at the library one morning and as I walked through the entrance, he shot me a big smile and said, "Hello!"
Not many strangers greet you in that way.
I felt like a cupid shot through my heart.
It was the a genuine happy-to-see-you smile.
It was beautiful.
When he saw me walking toward the entrance with the cart, he stood up from his seat behind the counter in a gesture to try to help me. But I got the door open so he slowly sat back down.
I couldn't stop smiling though. His smile made my morning. :)))
So that was...two months ago?
Tonight, I was on my way to buy some tea from the campus convenience store and he was walking in front of me. I quickly ran to the door and slipped in as he opened the door (I'm lazy like that and don't like to open doors myself haha). I had surprised him because he then turned around, saw me, and almost fell back with his arms flailing in the air as his long legs reached for balance. I think I made him feel bad for not holding the door open for me, but it was my own fault. When he recomposed himself, he opened the second door (double door entrance!) for me. I couldn't stop laughing. :)))
He is too cute!!!
I still write...occasionally. Long text posts feel icky on Tumblr. And the truth is that I don't want to write a lot and reveal how stupid I am to the world. I still get excited about the small stuff and I can write all I want here! This blog is (hopefully) more private...I don't think much people bother to read this (except for really close friends.)
There is a hapa guy on campus who is tall, skinny, and has wild hair. Campus is small, so I've seen him a few times and thought he was really cute (baby cute, not hot cute). However, this was just based on shallow observation of his looks because I didn't know what kind of person he was. It turns out he is really sweet too!
I have a part-time job making deliveries and returns of technical equipment. Sometimes they get really difficult because you have to carry projector screens that are twice your height or push big and bulky carts. If you can manage that, you're fine. But the tricky part is opening doors while carrying the heavy stuff.
I had to pick up a cart at the library one morning and as I walked through the entrance, he shot me a big smile and said, "Hello!"
Not many strangers greet you in that way.
I felt like a cupid shot through my heart.
It was the a genuine happy-to-see-you smile.
It was beautiful.
When he saw me walking toward the entrance with the cart, he stood up from his seat behind the counter in a gesture to try to help me. But I got the door open so he slowly sat back down.
I couldn't stop smiling though. His smile made my morning. :)))
So that was...two months ago?
Tonight, I was on my way to buy some tea from the campus convenience store and he was walking in front of me. I quickly ran to the door and slipped in as he opened the door (I'm lazy like that and don't like to open doors myself haha). I had surprised him because he then turned around, saw me, and almost fell back with his arms flailing in the air as his long legs reached for balance. I think I made him feel bad for not holding the door open for me, but it was my own fault. When he recomposed himself, he opened the second door (double door entrance!) for me. I couldn't stop laughing. :)))
He is too cute!!!
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