Here are just some random thoughts I had today.
- I felt faint today so I didn't feel like walking across campus, but I couldn't tell her that. I don't want them to roll my eyes and think of me as a weak person.
If she got upset, I won't offer an explanation because having them know the truth is more terrifying.
- You can underestimate good friends because they can read your mind even when you're pretending. And I pretend quite often. When I feel like dying, I will remember that I have friends like these.
- I pretend not because I'm a liar, but because of the 'secret,' the idea that believing something eventually makes it true. Applying this theory means that when you pretend to be okay, everything will be okay. But maybe it doesn't work very well.
- These past few weeks have been mentally and physically exhausting!!! No play! No sleep! Just do, do, do!
- My non-existent plans for the summer bother me so much. I want to be productive. I want to do something...truthfully, I want to study abroad in Korea. My long weeks of searching for scholarships have resulted in nothing. Where can I find $5000???
- I want to draw. But I don't have that kind of luxury right now.
- I FINISHED TWO MIDTERMS AND MY SECOND VIDEO PROJECT!!! I feel so accomplished. It was a terrible day that ended well.
- One more midterm and one day to study for it! Go, go, go!!!
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